Failure

I want to remember this feeling. Being so excited that I had a shot to be on the regional team. To see my name on the roster. Then how awful it felt to see that it has been taken down. I didn’t work hard enough this year. I didn’t eat right this year. I didn’t push the way I should have in the open. FUCK. I was so close. I do not want to have this feeling again next year.

Paleo again? Good idea.

I just have to say, Panera makes a damn good salad. Too bad it’s almost $10!!!!!! lettuce, tomato, onion, bacon, hard boiled egg, cheese, chicken, avocado. DELICIOUS.

Luckily it takes me two lunches to eat it, so I end up only spending about $5 per lunch.

Anyway, I have a wedding to attend to in one month. So, it’s time I get on with this eating clean thing for a while. I don’t need to feel fat in front of all my old gymnastics teammates. Paleo, really, is not that hard to do. I just get off track and forget that I need to go grocery shopping and I slack. This will also be good for trying to make the competitor program. I know I’m not making the regional team next year, but why not shoot for 2014?! 3…2…1… GO!!

Nevermind about that competition =[

Well, I guess I’m not competing Rx in October. I got a wedding invitation in the mail from Brittany Wiesner. Wedding is on Friday October 5th, the day before the competition in CT. There’s no way I can make it to CT. Ugh. I feel bad that I had to ditch Scotty after he already paid for it, I was really excited to compete with him! So, today is the start of trying to eat better and save money. Since now I’m going to Buffalo for the wedding, then I wanna go to FL with Brad in October also. Then Vegas next May. Dang, life is getting crazy!

 

Friday Night FIghts is tonight at ACF. My first one! I guess it’s like a mini team competition, should be a good time. We’re also going to Recovery Grill after for a Dine to Donate. This is the kickoff to our CrossFit for Hope 2013 fundraiser. $100,000 here we come!

Competing as Rx in 2 months

Scotty signed us up for a competition between CrossFit Strongtown and a few other local CT boxes. Teams of 2 guys and 2 girls. He signed us up for Rx. Holy crap am I nervous. It’s going to be mostly “the girls,” which I can do Rx for the most part. Jordan said that she knows some sort of Diane will be in there. Only thing that makes me nervous about there is the deadlifts. Better step it up in the gym! ha!

back into it

I’ve let myself go the past couple months. I guess I can use summer as an excuse- parties, bars, BBQs. I don’t know. Long story short, I need to get back on track and stop with the excuses. I’m getting stronger, but my body has stayed the same. It’s time for a change. Time to lean out. Today I woke up late and had no time for breakfast, so I decided that it’s a good day to fast. I’ll have dinner when I get home from the WOD. Then maybe I can do another 24 hour fast tomorrow too. We’ll see.

It’s probably time for some goals too-

snatch 120#
clean and jerk 150#
deadlift 250#
8 strict pullups
60 DUs

Homework

I don’t know if that’s the right thing to call it, but I’m sticking with the name! I’ve decided that I don’t spend enough time outside of the WODs working on my sucks and goals. How do I expect to reach my goals if I don’t work on them?! Last week, Julie and I stayed after WOD for about 10 minutes to work on double unders. Really, that’s not that much time to stay after, but the time will add up- 10 minutes, five times a week. That’s like a whole other WOD! I think this will help me a lot. So, yesterday I worked on double unders by myself, I seemed to be having an off day and averaged about 7 in a row. Today, I plan on working pullups and ring dips after WOD with Alyssa. I think I will do max pullups with the blue band, a benchmark from the 90 day challenge that I never completed. Then, 10 minutes of ring dip volume work. Sounds like a good plan to me! Oh yeah, I cut 2 minutes off my Diane time in just a month, and Jay gave me Rock Star of the Night last night! How exciting!! 🙂

Weekend cheating. AAaarrgghhhh!!

I’m so glad it’s monday because I know I’ll be back to my paleo eating. I have no self control when I’m at home and bored. Over the weekend, a few of us went to 16 handles after the ACF/CCP BBQ. This I do not regret. It’s like a treat for doing well last week and doing the team WOD. The things I regret are the pizza, beer and iced tea that I had on Saturday night, and the pancake I ate on Sunday, and the bacon egg and cheese on a bagel from Dunkin. UGH. I’m hoping that I’ll be better as the weekends go on and I’m back into paleo more. I feel like I need to retrain myself to cook and prepare food for the week, this makes cheating harder.

At the BBQ on Saturday, I got to see the “affiliate team” work out some. They’re basically all the good people from ACF and CCP. I am sure Jay scheduled our team WOD to overlap with their workout so we could see them. I’m glad he did. They are awesome! Hard workers, talented, and I strive to be what they are. Maybe one day I can be on the affiliate team. I’ll make that a long term goal!

My weaknesses and getting over the hump

Well, I ate strict all day yesterday (minus the coffee mate in my coffee), went to WOD (one of the hardest workouts of my life), then came home and made dinner and watched Glee (fantastic episode- Saturday Night GLEE-ver). After my dinner of spinach and tomato salad, homemade meatballs, and sweet potato fries, I ate 3 jelly beans. Why? I don’t know. Did I need them? Absolutely not. I just ate them because they were sitting out on the table, looking so delicious. I regret eating them. Yeah, it was only 3, but it just wasn’t necessary to have them, and it showed a sign of weakness. At least I had the 15 minute workout from hell before it =]

Today is Wednesday- Happy Hump Day! And happy day 3 of eating strict. I feel like Wednesday is the hardest day of the week to keep on it. It’s just such a lame day. Middle of the week, looking forward to the weekend, but knowing it’s not that close yet. Third day in a row with a WOD. Haha. I don’t know. Anyway, I just need to keep my head strong and get through today. The WOD doesn’t look SO awful (which means it probably will be), so I’m kind of excited for that. Then I go to Tommy’s tonight to watch the new episode of South Park. I should probably stay after WOD and work on my DUs and stretch. I haven’t stretched much the past couple of days because I’ve had to get home quick since Nina was coming over. So, yes, I will WOD, work on DUs and foam roll at ACF tonight, then stretch when I get home. Sounds like a good plan, I’ll let you know how it goes!

First day back!

I can’t lie, I felt really good today. All day. I was pumped to be back on track with my eating and beyond excited to WOD. Got to the gym, did my 500M row for warm-up, and I was already dying. It was HOT today =]  But, it makes the workouts harder, so I was sweating just after the warm-up. Then we worked on deadlifts for 25 min, kind of working up to a 1RM. I got 235, then couldn’t even get 245 an inch off the ground. Yikes! But I felt good because I really focused on my form. The WOD: 10 min AMRAP of 15 KB swings (53) and 5 burpees. About 5 rounds through I asked Kevin to watch my KB form because they kill my back, he gave me a few corrections, but it was still killing me. So Kevin had me do 10 OHS (35) and 10 burpees as a round for the rest of the time. I think I ended up doing 5 full rounds of the kb swings and burpees, plus 12 more kbs, then 2 full rounds of the other stuff, plus 5 OHS. So I did 3 KB swings short of 8 rounds. Not that great, but damn it was a good workout. I wanted to collapse afterward. When I came home, Nina came over (yay!), and we all talked while I made dinner. Now I’m off to bed!

Day one of my own challenge= success!

Fresh start

Went grocery shopping tonight to prepare myself for a week of strict paleo. It feels good to be prepared and to know that I am going to eat healthy. I’ve got Tommy on my side to keep me on track, and I am extra motivated since I am returning to workouts tomorrow for the first time in 2 weeks. Damn, I missed it. But, tomorrow’s workout- deadlifts, then an AMRAP of kb swings and burpees. Awful. But I’m psyched!